Many say that they will love to re-live their childhood but If I had the option of re-living it, I wouldn’t go back. That’s because I like to move on. And If I have to say, the last 3 years of my life were pathetic. And, I’m being really kind by using the word “Pathetic.” If I could, I would ERASE that time. No doubt I learnt a lot of lessons, but I have also lost a lot!
I had my own issues of being bullied, taken for granted by many people, haven encountered people with ugliest hearts, having self-esteem issues but thankfully, I’m in a very comfortable space today. I had acne throughout my teenage years and thankfully to the emergence of beauty blogs, it’s a lot in control. Even though I have full coverage concealer, I use them rarely because I feel comfortable in showing my bare blemished face.
But Yes! I’m not completely happy with the way I look. The thing I hate most is that I’m not able to lose weight. Although I just need to lose 6 kgs to be in my ideal weight, but I still can’t do it. I can’t fit into 80% of my wardrobe and I don’t feel like buying new clothes because of this. I hate the fact that acne erupts on my face mostly when I have special occasions! I also hate the fact that my eye wrinkle pattern is just like that of my mom, which means deep eye lines!
I’m a firm believer of kindness and love, not just for family but also for strangers. And, No! Bitter things in my life have made me practical but not bitter! I would never be that ugly person that masks makeup on outside! The more I share, the happier I feel.
There’s no point in being harsh on yourself. It’s tough but learn to accept yourself. Don’t feel guilty for your weaknesses but try to keep improving on them. For instance, I speak really fast and I’m trying to slow down the pace.
I’m a beauty blogger and I love communicating in beauty communities and blogs. I go outside many-a-times without any makeup! And, at the end of the day and sometimes, in early morning.. I’m just a girl who has scattered hair, super oily skin, I love being silly, I am very moody and many-a-times my secretive nature is been taken as rude, I can’t always find the sun to be shining, I over think many-a-times, I sometimes don’t remove my eyeliner before I go to bed (Guilty!), my nail polish is chipped, sometimes..I need to know that I’m one hell of an important person in someone’s lives.. Sometimes, all I need is someone telling me that “This too shall pass on. Don’t worry.” But I guess, getting non-fake sympathy is too much to be asked for.
Yes, I know of my weaknesses but I really don’t want to be around with people who keep pointing them out to me. I have come at a point where I am tired of pleasing all people because I just can’t handle more of their shit and keep fixing myself for them every now and then. I don’t need any more of dramas in my life.
Right now, I’m at a very peaceful pace with myself and hope this lasts forever!
From,
Perfectly Imperfect!
*Want to share something like me? Please Go Ahead! 🙂 *
wow!! wonderful post Heena. you touched me. we do have a lot of things in common like the last two years have been very challenging for me as well. But I am at a better place now 🙂 Trust me, it shall pass too. "Just dont stop believing. Never stop dreaming" It is my mantra in life.
A much needed post!
Love you for sharing your feelings! 🙂
Hey Heena,
I'm a boy and I have no interest in whatsoever your beauty products, but I do check out your blog a lot of times solely because of the creative pictures you take!
And, I must say, after you have posted this.. I am going to be a regular reader of your blog.
It takes courage to post these types of posts online..
I don't really get into any personal detail of yours.. but Are you single? 😛
You just seem like such a warm soul!
Wow! I just loved everything you have written here! So true!
And, to be honest, I actually like your mysteries! I find mysterious people interesting! 😛 😀
Hope you are doing fine 🙂
And, this is the reason why I'm a loyal reader of your blog!
Right now, I'm going through a rough relationship phase.. but clearly, reading this, has cleared my thoughts a lot!
You are right..one should to learn to accept their flaws.. Thanks Heena!
And, all this while I said "Your pictures are beautiful".
Now I want to say> You are Beautiful!
Hehe! 😛
But Thanks!:)
I Hope You Get Out Of Its Quicky n Safely! I'm Glad I Could!
🙂
Haha 😛
I am! Thanks Sanjana 🙂
Aww.. Thanks!
Yes, It Does, But Then As I Have Said In My About Me Section > My Blog Isn't Just Realted to Beauty Stuff 🙂
Haha.. Thanks a Ton! 😛
Yea! Single n Loving it! 😛 🙂
Thanks a Ton, Pallavi!:)
Readers Always Encourage.. Thanks!:)
I Hope You Are in a Good Phase Now, Preeti!:)
You Are So Right! Thank you so much 🙂
hi Heena, bang on! I feel you because I have been through similar struggles. Especially the battle of the bulge and right now I don't even want to look in the mirror some days
ur post was superb heena bt i jus wanna add 1 thing to it….u said many ppl wish to re-live deir chilhool/past bt u don't cz of sm challenging things n ppl u've dealt wid…..bt i wud say dat in dis case also u can wish 4 reliving ur past wid the improved U….wid all d abilities, skills and practicality to handle all those things.
P.S- the above said philosophy wud b practically possible only if v don't face a Memory Loss issue 😛 😀 😀
OMG awesome post Heena. I think none of us are perfect. The only thing is learn to be satisfied with ourselves (which i never do nevertheless i love myself). U r a sweet, cute person <3
What a Positive Way To Look At Things, Priyanka!
But As You Said, I'll Need "Ghajini Style" to Do That! 😛
Right! Nonethless, there are Low Points in Life But Life Goes On..
Thanku Megha 🙂
We are so similar Heena-Ditto! 😀 I I somehow knew it from the beginning, and now u have proved it 🙂 Beautiful Inspiring write up! 🙂
very nice post Heena… I use just an eyeliner and go to work… its only special occasion when I wear lipstick or blush.. and full makeup only for parties.. I have dark circled which I feel sad about but no point hiding them daily and then take pain to cover them daily and feel conscious…
Same Here!
I Have Been Thinking of Losing Weight From Past One Year, But The Motivation Just Dies!
But I'm going to Try Again
I though I was reading a lot about myself here.:)
Even I am a firm believer of love and kindness and inner beauty is much more important to me. I have my fair share of bitter people and incidents in life where my politeness was taken as weakness.
I am also confident in my own skin now and bare face even if my blemishes are visible.:)
I hope you remain the same always and get all the happiness!
I Too Do Full Makeup Only For Parties or When I'm In Really Mood too!
I Just Need a Light Concealer To Conceal My Dark Circles.. So, I Do That Everyday Using a Brush.
But If One Has Heavy Dark Circles,There's a Lot of Time Using Corrector+ Concealer.. Specially for Office Going..
Thanks Shikha!:)
Thanks a Ton, Niesha!
It's Very Important For One To To Remember That > It's OKAY! 🙂
Hehe 😛
Thankoo Bushra!:)
actually u DON'T need "ghajini style" heena 😛 😀
yea exactly!! 😛
Tu Mujhe Mil College Khulne Pe, Tujhse Shikhsha Leni Hai Thorhi 😛
This is the first time I am on your blog. And all through the article I went, "this is just like me!"
Loved your brutal honesty.
Thanks a Ton, CIB! 🙂